Today I am grateful that I woke up early and got to help my wife by handling the kids.
I am grateful that she had work late last night which is paying bills.
I am grateful that my kids get to go to church camp.
I am grateful that I got to watch the mass on TV and meditate on the scriptures about the importance of how God answered Moses as to His name.
I am grateful that I got to watch Fr. Mitch and a lebanese priest talk about the family.
I am grateful that we got a free oven hood and I got to install it today.
I am grateful that I got to buy my son an inexpensive video game about baseball that he and his friends love.
I am grateful that some rain is in the forecast.
I am grateful that I got to go to a meeting tonight and talk and hear about a power.
I am grateful that I got to throw the football with a friend and a kid.
I am grateful for the nice meal that my wife cooked that was better the second time.
I am grateful that I got to play some washers after the meeting.
I am grateful that I got to give a blind man a ride home and talk about singleness of purpose in AA and my role in addiction fellowships.
I am grateful that I got to come home to a loving wife and beautiful kids.

Thanks be to God.

This Wednesday started early and ended late.
I did my prayer and scripture meditation, today was a reading beginning the exodus.
I got the kids off to a prayerful start and I stuck to my committment to talk less and issue consequences more.
My wife was still resentful with me because I could not commit to maintaining the tasks that are important to her at the level she expects if she takes a full time job.
I was worried about being unproductive.
I did a home improvement task that has been needed for some time.
I woke and fed the kids.
I did an inside cleaning task and routine maintenance.
I did some job searching.
I thought about the alcoholic archetype.
I washed my truck.
I had to stay home and take care of the kids in the evening while my wife worked.
I spent some time outside with them and I cleaned and set up a big ice water dispenser.
my neighbor gave me a used kids bed and a set of tires. I have been worried about my tires and these might actually fit my truck.
I lost my temper and yelled at my son in front of his friends but I apologized immediately and he accepted it.
The kids responded well to immediate consequences today and I didn;t need to repeat myself much and they didn't have to be punished much.
Thanks be to God

This morning I had to get myself moving several times to avoid the idleness that bothered me yesterday. At one point I found myself walking in and out and around the house just doing things I saw in front of me. It's not that I don't have anything to do it's just that with constant barrage of things to do to maintain the kids that I can't hold together a list of to dos in my head. With the unpredictable nature of my wife's work and the need to take and pick up the kids at camp I am never quite sure how much time I am going to have.

Nevertheless, I did feel a better sense of accomplishment today.

Today I realized that my discipline practices with the kids have degraded. I commit now to improve this starting tomorrow. I have got to quit nagging and yelling and instead must implement immediate consequences. I also must be willing to endure the meltdowns that will come at first.

I got to throw balls with my oldest and his friend today.

Thanks be to God.

I got out of bed early and helped get 3 of my kids off to church camp this morning.

Today I thought about a couple of ideas:

The Divine Archetype
The Alcoholic Archetype
Spiritual Restoration
Spiritual Regeneration

Archetypes Defined
Archetypes are blueprints of universal behavioral patterns that reside in the collective unconscious. When as aspect of our soul resonates with a particular archetype the energies and experiences of that figure become available to us.

I shouldn't look for proof of the existence of God through natural evidence of the creation of the universe. I should seek the evidence for the existence of God in the divine archetype. I shouldn't look for God in what he can do outside of me but rather what he can do inside of me.

Today I was worried alot about resting too much; I feel like a pothead when I fo this. I felt considerably restless and isolated at home. I tried to be grateful for the peace and love of family that I have.

I got to go to a meeting tonight and have several conversations with friends. I was grateful to be able to speak with adults.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I made a decision for our family to take the boys to mass early. My wife grumbled but I feel that it was best for us so that we could take the truck with the working air conditioner.

I made a decision to go to the treatment center. My wife grumbled about this but I didn't respond or antagonize her. I have been reacting less to her grumbling in the past couple of days, this has given me a lot of peace.

The other guy that showed up really does a great job of carrying the message, I was grateful to get to work with him today. He brought a topic on the great experience of fellowship in AA/CA. Afterward I got to play two really intense games of table tennis.

I had some new thoughts about how I once got sober by a wake up call and willpower. This was in Junior High School. I am not sure what the point of this is but I think it has to do with how I drank and used not how much or how long. Maybe that should be the approach to my story. I could talk about how i felt and what this did to me and just lead up to my first sobriety and then summarize the rest as the extent of my delusion.

I got to have a nice little cookout and watch a ball game this afternoon. I got impatient with the kids but I apologized and showed them a lot of love.

Thanks be to God.

This morning my wife had a garage sale and I watched the kids. I got them off to a good start with breakfast and religious cartoons. As I went through the morning I lost site of working within the scope of my family responsilities and I got my mind on other things that I can't do. I fell into failed expectations and low grade resentments. Tomorrow I must trust in the LOrd that he needs me to be all I can be at home and not espect to be able to be or do more.

Thanks be to God

I got off to a great start this morning at 6:15 am. I got breakfast out of the way and got to spend some great time in the back yard mowing the lawn and I got to the kids out there. I got to play washers with my son.

A good friend of my wife showed up and dropped off their kids. My kids and their kids had a great time.

I got to take a long nap in the afternoon and get some cleaning done.

All in all it was a great day.

Thanks be to God.