This morning I was late getting started and felt like I was trying to catch up all day.

The kids kinda got to me to day. Not in an angry way but rather in a draining way. But I feel better now.

I was disappointed that I didn't make a better effort to get together with a sponsee who wants to do the work today.

I am grateful for a good day.

This morning I was running late getting the kids to church camp and I had to stop and think when anxiety started to crop up. I realized that I get too anxious over running late out of misguided fear. I realized that I then place unreasonable expectations on the kids to hurry more than they are capable of and then get angry when they don't meet them. We made it on time and in good spirits.

I got to visit with a cousin today and we had a great talk about our common experience of drinking and then getting sober.

This afternoon I got to take my autistic son to his therapy session. I was overcome with gratitude when I saw the attention he received and realized how much he needs it.

This evening we were blessed with some much needed rain. I deeply enjoyed watching my son and his friend play in the downpour. They were racing leaves in the curb streams which triggered a memory in me of doing the same when I was a kid.

Thanks be to God.

This morning we got off to another good start and had good morning.

This morning I found some new initiative to do first through third step work with sponsees.

I got to talk to 2 sponsees, do check-ins and plan appointments.

I got to visit with my relatives in the evening.

All was peaceful and content today.

Watching the video of the soldier captured in Afghanistan tonight made me really appreciate all the good things that God has done for me today.

Earlier today I believe my faith had degraded. I believe this because when this appreciation came tonight I felt it fill the vacancy.

I am grateful that I get to live in a nice, comfortable home.
I am truly grateful that I get to hear the laughing of my children and feel the warmth of their hugs.
I am grateful to be able to sit across from my wife and watch her blue eyes.
I am grateful that I got to listen to my Mom and Dad's stories about their childhood this weekend.
I am grateful for a cloudy day even though the rain missed us.
I am grateful that I got to go to a meeting and be of service.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I woke up thinking about the first three of the twelve steps.

Step one should culminate at the point where a spiritual experience and a psychic change is needed.
Two major points of consideration of step 2 should be concepts of a power:
- A power greater than myself
- A power that will restore us to sanity

My will is my decision making and my value system on which they are based(my wants, my needs, my fears).
My Life is my value system in ALL the areas of my life not just my alcoholism (or addiction). It is important to turn over all areas of my life because the of problem spiritual malady must be solved in order for the alcoholism (or addiction) to be solved.

I got the boys off to early mass and although we were a little late it was a particularly joyful event, especially communion. All throughout the rest of the day I have had the music of the psalm in my head.

In the afternoon I went to the treatment center meeting. I was considerably disappointed that I and a friend there told too long of a drug-alogue. But, upon meditation tonight I realized that I did just tell a story to make a point and I did read out of the Big Book first and tie the story to the reading. I also stayed within the time frame. I should have talked to my friend about it. A new guy came with us and did a great job.

In the evening I went to visit with my aunt and cousin. I brought them over to my house to meet my family. It was nice to be able to do this and be at peace and ease.

Thanks be to God for this day.

This morning I had several moments of inspiration which formed my current outlook on life. In the morning mass the guest priest spoke for the second day of how Jesus initiated a change of emphasis from ritual sacrifice to sacrifice of self and relationship with God as the connection to his love and power. Then with the kids I watched the program "The Friar" which told the parable of the unforgiving servant.

It was a busy morning, I cooked the kids a great big pancake breakfast and had to attack the cleaning in prep for my mom's birthday lunch. I took a break to watch the animated stories of the new testament with the kids. My wife was getting ready for a play date and she got very angry with me because the kids kept stopping to watch the program. She also yelled at me for being an adult watching cartoons. I was resentful and disappointed that she just sees this as cartoons. But I was inspired by the lesson of forgiveness and I was able to turn away from my resentment and pray earnestly for God to remove it. I watched the parable of the Roman Centurion who had faith that Jesus would heal his servant. He had faith that Jesus was Lord and knew of his authority. I cried on seeing this. I made the commitment to go to confession today.

While everyone was gone I made an effective examination of conscience.

We had a great lunch. We had a discussion about the relationships between family members and the destructiveness of resentments.

I finally got my self to confession after 15 months. It went very well and I no longer feel worried about it as a difficult experience. I feel a load lifted off of my shoulders and I am ecstatic about being able to join with the LORD sacramentally again. I was inspired by a family I saw there to take all of my family.

I got to do some batting practice with my son. I got to go to a meeting.

Thanks be to God.

This Friday I woke up at 4:00 am and got out of bed at 6:0 am.

I did a major housecleaning in preparation for my Mom's birthday lunch and a possible visit by my aunt and cousin.
I fed the kids and prepped them for church camp.
I picked up the kids from camp.
I did some branch trimming.
I did some job searching.
I fed the kids lunch and dinner.
I did some baseball practice with the kids.
I gave the kids baths.
I didn't put the kids to bed right my wife got angry when she came home from her evening meeting and they were running around making a mess.

Thanks be to God for a good day.