This morning I was a little resentful when people aroud me were talking about stuff that they were resentful about.

Today at work I was afraid a few times when I thought I made mistakes. I found that my boss seemed very supportive to me.

I got to go to the noon meeting. We read in step 12 about the spiritual awakening. I felt that my sharing was too mechanical. For me the spiritual awakening was the shift in my core motives, the awareness of the spiritual side of my being, and my new outlook on life.

tonight I took my son to practice and I was upset with my pitching. I have to remember that it's just for fun.

My son made me proud tonight when I heard him explain to another boy what his first communion was all about.

Thanks be to God for my Spiritual Awakening.

This morning in my meditation I received a vision of God more distinctly than usual.

This morning I almost didn't go to work but I asked God for guidance and found the initiative to go. I ended up having a decent day and being ok.

Today I felt the idea that my role as a parent is the most important spiritual vocation that I have and I should spend more time seeking guidance and working at that role.

I got to go to a noon meeting today. As I left, a friend walked out with me and gave me his assurance about something I shared about my childhood. I left grateful for his support but not really thinking I needed it. Then it occured to me that God sent him to me not for me but for my children. That I not minimize the affect of verbal abuse and that I not repeat the behavior.

Tonight my son and I read about the Archangel Michael.

Thanks be to God for Guardian Angels.

THe past two days I've been struggling with a respiratory virus.

Yesterday at noon my son and I were able to play his baseball game.

This morning I was physically worn out and so was my wife. She slept in and when she got up I went back to bed and passed ou hard. I feel terrible that we didn't make it to church but we watched mass on TV. I have to remember that it is a lot of work maintaining the kids when we are ill.

We had another birthday gathering today for my 1 year old daughter. We had a great time despite the fact that we were not feelig well.

I was resentful to my wife for not getting up early. I have to remember that my serenity is not dependent upon her and I need to cut her some slack for being sick. I think that I am clinging to a prolonged resentment.
I have fallen back into fear over my job situation. I must review the fact that my main mission in life is a spiritual one.

Thanks be to God for a great weekend.

Lately I have thought about being a little more systematic about my evening review. I need to make sure and pray first. I need to make sure and find at least one instance of each shortcoming and each attribute. I need to make sure and seek corrective measures.

Today I was selfish when I did not stay focused on work.
Lately the idea of rationalization seems to be in my mind a lot.
I was resentful today with customers for their expectations of me.
This morning I was afraid of not waking up in time for work.

At work I could make it a constructive pursuit to stay focused on work related tasks at all times and staying on top of things.
I could avoid spending a lot of time on low priority tasks and avoid reacting to low priority requests.

Tonight I got to go to City Wide Sobriety Birthday Night in CA. It was a small group but it was enough people to fill our clubhouse. It turned out to be just the right size and I enjoyed everything that everyone had to share.

The only thing I felt bad about was that I forgot to thank God for my sobriety.

Today I got to live a dream again.
Thank you God for keeping me clean and sober today and for the past 5 years.

Today I got extremely busy and my boss suggested I ask for help. I was resentful that everyone expects so much from me. I was afraid that I forgot something critical. I had to seek gratitude, acceptance, and courage.

Today at our noon meeting we read from the story "Acceptance Was The Answer". I realized that the two paragraphs about acceptance draw a parallel between chemical sobriety and emotional sobriety. The paragraphs preceding that all dealt with priorities and denial.

I was sick today but I was grateful to be healthy enough to make it through the day.

I started out "feeling" that going to the noon meeting was execssive again and had a shift in thinking in which I found initiative to go. I was glad that I did because there were few people there and I felt like a contirbutor. I have found this conception of meeting attendance as an endeavor that is thge most important and interesting thing in the world, self control.

I think I forgot that last night I got to speak to an old friend in sobriety at church when I picked up my son from religious ed.

Tonight I found my son's drawing from his church class in which he drew Holy Water, Holy Blood, Holy Bread, and Holy Cross.

Tonight I got to do some service work on my fellowship's area website.

Thanks be to God for a fruitful day.

Yesterday I found myself yelling at my kid and I forgot to write about it last night. I didn't realize that I was yelling at him until he was yelling at me. I must re-assert myself to exercise discipline with him in a systematic way that does not employ yelling.

This morning I walked up to a street corner on my way to work. I saw a homeless man lumbering across the street toward me. He asked me for money and I told him no. He started to walk away but when he saw that I had to stop and wait for traffic he started grumbling at me. I ignored him and then he did something totally unexpected. He poked me in the nose.

I almost punched him but instead I yelled and threatened him. He yelled and cursed at me. Then I had to just stand there waiting for traffic. I was able to walk away without having acted on my violent thoughts. I immediately asked God to save me from being angry. I struggled some for a little while as I felt myself being sucked into violent and vindictive thoughts.

I had to persevere in seeking divine assistance and in exerting my will to seek forgiveness for him. I also had to catch the fact that I wanted to project my anger to all homeless people.

At noon we read my favorite pages about step 11. I had a lot that I wanted to share about the step. Then when my to came we were on the paragraph of the Saint Francis prayer. I read the prayer and was moved to refrain from sharing so as to not detract from the prayer.

I got to stay for the end of the meeting and pick up my 5 year coin. A lady got up before me and picked up a 13 year chip. I got to receive some humility along with my chip

Thanks be to God for everything.

Today at the noon meeting we read out of the story 'Acceptance is the Answer' or 'Doctor, Alcoholic, Addict'.

About Pills
There's no chemical solution for a spiritual problem (or an alcoholic problem, or a thinking problem).
There's no permanent sobriety with a chemical stop-gap.
All chemicals trigger the physical allergy.
All chemicals alter the mind and interfere with the spirit.

Today at work the scare that I had on Friday turned out ok.

Last night I had a bad dream about large animals. This was the same type of dream that I have had before. There was a large animal stalking me inside and outside of a house and I was trying to escape from it and it got me by the hand and mauled it. The animals were bears and when I escaped from one there was another larger, a different color, and more ferocious.

Tonight I enjoyed time with my family. I played mock football with the kids and we rode bikes. My youngest daughter is walking ten steps at a time.

Thanks be to God for a wonderful day.