This morning I thought that I need to continue to look at the meaning of a spiritual awakening.

At noon we read about a twelfth step jod well done and about carrying the message and practicing the principles.

I thought that this is how I should determine if I have practiced the twelfth step well:

Did I try? - Did i think to practice the principles in my affairs? Or, do I just act impulsively? Did I try to carry the message? Or, do I just aimlessly share?

Did I execute? - Did I actually apply the principles (inventory, God-reliance, amends) in my affairs? Or, do I just intend to and hope that I did? Did the message I carried focus on the principles? Or, did I share my story, troubles, advice, religion, or opinion?

Did I get results? - Did I stay sober? Or, did I base my success on whether the other guy did or did not get sober? Was I restored to sanity? Or did I put my expectations on a turn of fortune or someone else changing?

Today I was inundated at work but I did my best.

A person in distress asked me for my advice on financial troubles and I got to share experience with him.

I had a wonderful evening with my family.

Thanks be to God for taking care of us all.

This morning one of my customers had a huge problem in which some advice that I gave him contributed to the problem. Either I or our company miscommunicated. He called the owner of the company and I was in a difficult position because someone else higher than me might also be faulted. The owner called the customer after speaking to me and I expected the worst. When my boss called me back I was shocked to hear that everything was OK and he just needed me to give the customer some TLC.

I realized just how powerful God can be in changing any circumstance.

Thanks be to GOD for peace of mind.

This morning I was a little resentful when people aroud me were talking about stuff that they were resentful about.

Today at work I was afraid a few times when I thought I made mistakes. I found that my boss seemed very supportive to me.

I got to go to the noon meeting. We read in step 12 about the spiritual awakening. I felt that my sharing was too mechanical. For me the spiritual awakening was the shift in my core motives, the awareness of the spiritual side of my being, and my new outlook on life.

tonight I took my son to practice and I was upset with my pitching. I have to remember that it's just for fun.

My son made me proud tonight when I heard him explain to another boy what his first communion was all about.

Thanks be to God for my Spiritual Awakening.

This morning in my meditation I received a vision of God more distinctly than usual.

This morning I almost didn't go to work but I asked God for guidance and found the initiative to go. I ended up having a decent day and being ok.

Today I felt the idea that my role as a parent is the most important spiritual vocation that I have and I should spend more time seeking guidance and working at that role.

I got to go to a noon meeting today. As I left, a friend walked out with me and gave me his assurance about something I shared about my childhood. I left grateful for his support but not really thinking I needed it. Then it occured to me that God sent him to me not for me but for my children. That I not minimize the affect of verbal abuse and that I not repeat the behavior.

Tonight my son and I read about the Archangel Michael.

Thanks be to God for Guardian Angels.

THe past two days I've been struggling with a respiratory virus.

Yesterday at noon my son and I were able to play his baseball game.

This morning I was physically worn out and so was my wife. She slept in and when she got up I went back to bed and passed ou hard. I feel terrible that we didn't make it to church but we watched mass on TV. I have to remember that it is a lot of work maintaining the kids when we are ill.

We had another birthday gathering today for my 1 year old daughter. We had a great time despite the fact that we were not feelig well.

I was resentful to my wife for not getting up early. I have to remember that my serenity is not dependent upon her and I need to cut her some slack for being sick. I think that I am clinging to a prolonged resentment.
I have fallen back into fear over my job situation. I must review the fact that my main mission in life is a spiritual one.

Thanks be to God for a great weekend.

Lately I have thought about being a little more systematic about my evening review. I need to make sure and pray first. I need to make sure and find at least one instance of each shortcoming and each attribute. I need to make sure and seek corrective measures.

Today I was selfish when I did not stay focused on work.
Lately the idea of rationalization seems to be in my mind a lot.
I was resentful today with customers for their expectations of me.
This morning I was afraid of not waking up in time for work.

At work I could make it a constructive pursuit to stay focused on work related tasks at all times and staying on top of things.
I could avoid spending a lot of time on low priority tasks and avoid reacting to low priority requests.

Tonight I got to go to City Wide Sobriety Birthday Night in CA. It was a small group but it was enough people to fill our clubhouse. It turned out to be just the right size and I enjoyed everything that everyone had to share.

The only thing I felt bad about was that I forgot to thank God for my sobriety.

Today I got to live a dream again.
Thank you God for keeping me clean and sober today and for the past 5 years.

Today I got extremely busy and my boss suggested I ask for help. I was resentful that everyone expects so much from me. I was afraid that I forgot something critical. I had to seek gratitude, acceptance, and courage.

Today at our noon meeting we read from the story "Acceptance Was The Answer". I realized that the two paragraphs about acceptance draw a parallel between chemical sobriety and emotional sobriety. The paragraphs preceding that all dealt with priorities and denial.

I was sick today but I was grateful to be healthy enough to make it through the day.

I started out "feeling" that going to the noon meeting was execssive again and had a shift in thinking in which I found initiative to go. I was glad that I did because there were few people there and I felt like a contirbutor. I have found this conception of meeting attendance as an endeavor that is thge most important and interesting thing in the world, self control.

I think I forgot that last night I got to speak to an old friend in sobriety at church when I picked up my son from religious ed.

Tonight I found my son's drawing from his church class in which he drew Holy Water, Holy Blood, Holy Bread, and Holy Cross.

Tonight I got to do some service work on my fellowship's area website.

Thanks be to God for a fruitful day.