This morning I prayed and meditated.

Today I got up and went to work and had a sane and productive day.

Today I thought about the movie Juno that I got to watch with my wife and son. I realized that my wife was one of those babies like the one in the movie. I found a new conception of her mother in identification with Juno. I found a heartfelt sense of gratitude and appreciation for the tough choices she had to make. I realized the same for my wife's parents.

At the noon meeting we read from page 101 to the first page of To Wives. There were a lot of people at the meeting. I thought of the people who got sober and showed me that sobriety came from a power that worked within me, not a program that shielded me from alcohol. I thought of my wife who got help for herself and quit enabling me to kill myself.

I got too upset upset this afternoon over losing at ping pong.

This evening was chaotic.

Thanks be to God for this moment of peace.

Today I had peace among the fear and worry of others at work.

I got to go to the noon meeting an we read about the joy of watching others recover. The Daily Reflections was also about this topic. A friend wrote my wife about the difficulties that they are going through but the joy if having their loved one sober of finding peace in their higher power. It was rather synchronous.

This afternoon I got to put up the swing beam for the kids. I was grateful for my life.

I never yelled and griped at the kids today. I love my wife.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I was very questionable when I first woke up because of the virus that I am fighting. I prayed for initiative and resilience and I received it.

I got to go to the noon meeting. It was a low attended meeting and we finished early. I got to stay and talk to a good friend afterward.

This afternoon I got to play with the kids and measure up our new (used) swing beam and a-frame. I remembered that last night when I went to the upscale neighborhood in the hills I had a moment when I coveted what they have. I had a moment of regret for unrealized dreams. I was able to turn away from that without much effort plus I was busy with the swing beam and had gratitude for that. But as I drove to home in our neighborhood and then carried the parts into our yard. I received a great deal of gratitude and appreciation for the wonderful home that God has blessed us with.

This evening I got slightly upset with myself for griping at one of the kids.

I was playing with my oldest son and I dropped him and he hit the bed frame with his mouth. I got angry and afraid.

Those were only minor things that I must give to the Lord ad do better tomorrow. It truly was another great day today.

Today I had a productive focused day at work. A few potential problems went right instead of going wrong.

I got to go to the noon meeting today, we read about tradition 11 and step 12. In particular we read about the spiritual awakening. This lead me to try and identify a concept to describe the spiritual element in a structural model of the inner being.

I believe the inner being is composed of three distinct entities at the core, the instinct, the intellect, and the intuition.

Today I made a slight mistake at work that I am afraid of.

Today I got to go to the noon meeting. We talked about step twelve.

On the way home I ran into a friend on his bicycle. We got to talk for a long time and he told me some things that he has to do to focus on God's will and plan for him and not on his troubles. I needed to hear that about me.

This evening my parents visited and bought us a nice dinner.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I got up relatively early and got the kids going for 9:00 am mass. We had to go early because my wife was leading the children's liturgy of the word. I am very grateful for a wife willing and able to do this.

Today was the Feast of The conversion of St. Paul. I was moved to tears during the first reading from Acts that described the Road to Damascus story.

This afternoon I went to the meeting at the treatment center. It was a great meeting and the guys asked good questions.

This morning I found myself thinking about my issues at work and the week ahead. Thanks to the grace of God I have not been overwhelmed with fear and I have been able to detach from the outcome somewhat. But I must not deny that I am afraid. I ask God to remove my fear as it crops up so that I may be the person he needs me to be.

I was very run down this morning and slept off and on. But I was able to make the kids a big breakfast and do some inside cleaning. After a nap I was able to do some yard work. After another nap I was able to do baseball practice with my son. After another nap I did some typing practice. After that I spent some one on one time with my daughter.

I watched a program about Howard Hughes. I learned some more insight into the nature of his insanity and how it was related to his addiction. I also saw the correlation between his inability recover from his addiction because his inexhaustible resources kept him from being able to surrender his will. I was able to appreciate my trials and suffering as they were key to my surrender.

Tonight I got to go to a meeting, the topic was self will. A good friend who got sober here and moved away came to visit. He is still sober and he is happy.

Thanks be to God for a great day.