I started trying to do this review and my son came in and jumped on me. After I led him out my wife started yelling at him in the other room. They don't seem to care that I need some peace and quiet to do this work. They are really pissing me off. I just can't seem to focus on this stupid review. I can't stop thinking of all the things that I need to do that seem more important. Just as I was starting to focus my son ran in and jumped on me again. It is impossible for someone like myself to do this damn thing. I feel like I just don't have frikkin' time to do this crap!!

Note: My sponsor told me that I should write down whatever I can. I never did get through this review that night but I came back and put this note that I acknowledge that I tried and that my sponsor said that just trying is a form of humility. I am grateful for this.

Today I thought that I would be better off to get my own apartment and focus on my recovery. Then I could come back to my family when things change. I asked God to remove this self will.

One of my co-workers said that he was talking to a guy who said that his girlfriend wrecked his car and he wished she were dead. I said that he probably uses her for that car. That he wasn't man enough to get his own.

I realized that this is me. That is how selfish I am.