Last night I got to watch the Indiana Jones trilogy with my son and wife. It was great timing for him and a wonderful surprise for me as he is now at just the right age to understand it and be fascinated. It also presented some good opportunities for discussions about spiritual matters.

Today I realized what I needed to see about myself and what bothered me about the coach of the team we played yesterday. It was the excessively competitive nature of his attitude and how he is teaching that to those boys. I realized that it was my reaction to this in trying to compete this way also that caused me to have that problem. I usually try to play it safe with the boys because I am more concerned about them having a good time than winning. I want them to win but I don't want them to have to do it by good batting and fielding not by taking advantage of every mistake of the other team. I don't want them to overvalue the game to the extent that it comes in between them and other people. I let this happen to me. I let the competition become so important that it came between me and me.

Today I watched the atheist program on TV and the host said that the biggest religions have failed because they do not give practical, rational reasons for faith. I agreed with him and this reaffirmed my mission in life. During the discussion there was a caller who brought up the idea that you go back to the origin of things and his proof of God is someone had to create everything. The atheist rightly stated that there is no reason that a God had to create everything although he did say there is a reason for everything.

I think that here is where the reason for faith comes in. It is not because that there is absolute proof of God being the creator, but because the God idea works better for more people. Here is where I make a choice to believe what has spontaneously arisen from all people that there is a God and he created everything. The reason why there can't be absolute poof is because we are speaking about a being that transcend the dimensions and laws of physics of this universe. It is stated that that being can only reveal enough of himself to present s with a choice so that we have the gift of free will. If that being revealed enough of himself to us to have absolute proof then we would just be clones of him. My proofs are in the transformation of persons and peoples thinking that changed them from being destructive to being beneficial to mankind.

Today was the Solemnity of the Holy Trinity. I think this went hand in hand with the program and thoughts I had today about the nature of God. The Father and Sone nature of God show that he is outside of time. The triune nature of the God head show that his nature is outside of the physical laws of this universe. The nature of the holy spirit shows to me the way that he can be conected to s and be a type of spiritual vitalization. The Father and Son present us with family figures that we can relate to.

This morning I wake up late but I thought of my recent decision to quit stressing over getting to Church on time and being dressed just right. I got myself out of bed and resolved to just take the morning as it comes and get the boys going. I skipped breakfast but we made it on time and had a great morning.

My wife got angry at me for not doing something the way she wanted me to do it and decided she had to do it and would not make it to church. I had to let go of it and realize that she was making her own decisions and I do not have to manage them and I need to let her own tehm.