This morning I got off to a good start. I thought of restoration of mental faculties and good judgment. Also I included development of values and virtues. I thought of principle over instinct just as with intellect over emotion.

Best of all I asked that I be able to love others as God has loved me. Thinking back I believe that i had weird dreams but was protected from their influence to fear. On the drive to an appt the outside environment had a tremendous affect on my motivation. I thought of the power of environment. I planned to put an event on my calendar every morning to get outside.

In the afternoon I got to spend some great time with my mom and the kids in the back yard. It was a beautiful sunny cool day. Later the kids and I went to the park. I had the boys practice baseball. I had to practice a lot of patience with my youngest son. He wasn't making a good effort and I caught myself chastising him too much. I had to stop and think about how to properly motivate him and I had to accept whatever small activity that we could accomplish today. After we finished, I had some really beautiful moments giving rides on my back and chasing them and rolling on the grass when they tackled me. I thought about how lucky we are to live where we live and have this day.

Tonight I got to go to a meeting. On the way home I noticed something unexpected. It was a check and mortgage slip. I had forgotten to drop the payment the other day. When I got home I found out that we may be in foreclosure.

I see this as a real test of my faith. Do I really trust that God will take care of us? If so, then I must not be afraid. Do I really believe we will be okay no matter what happens? If so, then I must show my family as much love as I can. As I lay in bed I thought back to the moment at the park. Just then I saw the point of light more vividly than ever before.

Thanks be to God.