Today I realized that I have been living in fear of helping my co-workers. I have withheld at times in order to make sure that I look good enough.

This evening my son said "Dad I like to get lost with you". He meant when I take him for a drive somewhere we have never been. But I took it metaphorically as I think that together when we share this experience we make a unique connection. It may be the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.

This evening my baby daughter said Da-Da in a blissful moment when I was pushing her on her swing.

At noon we read about tradition twelve. A friend talked about how he knows someone who when asked how much clean time he has answers same as you, 24 hours. He said the guy doesn't like to state his time because it places too much emphasis on time. He offered some other observation that didn't expand on the concept much but this resonated with me and is inspiring me to pursue this concept a little further as I have made this observation also. I guess the simple fact is that it is about quality of spirit rather than quantity of time.

Tonight I got to see a program about Pastor Ted Haggard. I was deeply moved by his struggle. I was even more shaken by the realization of the gift I have been given of understanding and purpose.

Thanks be to God.