Last night I dreamed of a beast. I dreamed that I was hunting for deer with a guide. We were staked by a river to take advantage of a path where the animals came on shore. We saw one pass but it was not adequate. A very large one emerged but it rushed out aggressively as if it knew we were there and intended to stalk us. I jumped out of the water so fast that the guide could not draw a bead for a shot. Then it circled back around us and trapped us against the water.

Just when I got panicked a guy emerged from a different direction and challenged the beast to take him. It went for the bait and ran past us. As it ran past I saw that it was a huge tiger not a deer. The guide and I ran up some stairs and into a house that appeared and slammed the door behind us. We immediately realized that we needed to help the guy outside so we opened the door and started yelling to distract the tiger. It worked and the tiger looked at us.

But the guy was so intent on taming the tiger that he didn't take his opportunity to run into the house. He looked at us like we were still in danger. Then the tiger pounced on him. It was horrifying, I saw him duck out of the way but the tiger had him by the foot and was mauling him. I had to turn away.

Today I was anxious about keeping up at my job.
Today I was thinking too much about how good I looked.
Today I was worried about our finances.

At lunch I got to go to our meeting. We spoke about tradition three. I talked about how I couldn't identify as an alcoholic but thank Go that the only requirement was that I had a desire to quit drinking. I was there because I needed to quit drinking to stop using drugs. Later when I got a better understanding of alcoholism, I broke through some denial, and I gained back some memories, I was able to admit that I was an alcoholic.

In admitting the common problem of alcoholic addiction I found unity with people that I otherwise might not mix with. But then in the spiritual solution to an unmanageable life I found unity with the whole world.

last night my wife was very sick. Today she was much better, thanks be to God.

This evening I got to take my son to baseball practice. We went for ice cream afterward. At home I got to play with the babies and throw a ball with son #2. Then we watched the final innings of USA vs. PR and USA pulled it out in the bottom of the ninth.

Thank you God for a great day.