This morning I made a decision to watch mass on TV and stay home to do schoolwork.  I was still not feeling well with and identifiable illness and I was worried about completing the assignments necessary to avoid falling more than a week behind.  I made breakfast for all and then became exhausted and fell asleep all morning.

During my sleep I drifted in and out of weird, detailed, and at times stressful dreams.  While I was sleeping I also pondered my change of degree plan and fell into worry about my choice and questioned my decision.  When I woke up I thought through it and remembered the reasons why I made my choice.  I received some reconciliation.

I fell into fear about completing my school work.  Later I tried to file for an unemployment insurance claim and was declined as it has run out.  I began to fear for our financial situation.

I had to remind myself that I have made a choice to depend on God.  I had to ask myself if this is still true if I have begun to depend on the world.  I was relieved to be able to depend upon God.

In the evening my parents came to visit.  We enjoyed our time together but I lost track of it and missed going to a meeting.

I got back to work on math after bath and bedtime for the kids and I kept myself from going more than a week behind.  Perhaps this week I can make some progress to get back on track.

I am grateful to be feeling better.

Thanks be to God.