This morning when I was waking up I realized that twice in my semi-conscious mind was trying to rationalize a couple of my choice character defects.  Once it was trying to think about a way to minimize the pain of recovering from a drug binge by taking the right combination of pills, vitamins, and nutritional supplements.  Another time it was allowing myself to peruse an item on the chick menu.  I made sure to take time to start my day in conscious contact with God.

We made it to mass on time and in good spirits.  It was one of the lowest attended masses that I have seen.  This applied to the availability of servers as well, the priest had to do all the readings himself.  Our responsorial and second reading were about living a righteous and lawful life as a means to be close to God but the gospel reading was the story of Mary and Martha and how just being willing be with God is what is most important. I also read about contemplation in reference to this.  

This afternoon I expressed some of my continuing fears about one of my classes to my wife and she helped me realize a strategy that is much less stressful and reasonable to accomplish.  This helped me back to the place of recovered enthusiasm and peace.

We had a birthday dinner with my mom and I enjoyed the time with my family.

I got to go to a meeting later and we read from "To Wives."

Thanks be to God.