I woke up this Monday with each important task in my week on my mind, My book report due Wednesday, my observation report due Tuesday, my son's baseball instruction, my math homework that I am behind on, the house work and laundry that needs to get done, the yardwork, and the call that I got from my friend about speaking at a treatment center.

I had to exert myself to stop the whirlwind in my mind. I had to let go of my tendency to delve into each issue and try and think everything through only to digress into another one. I had to pray for order and priority and patience. I had to let go and let God guide me through them at the appropriate time, even if that means the eleventh hour.

It occurred to me this day that I am not addressing the ongoing disagreement with the decisions, attitudes, and actions that my wife takes. This has been simmering for some time and she and I are almost distant on a daily basis now. Guess that my disagreement could be best stated as a boundary that I have had to set because she always seems to need me to buy into her level of life management. I am going along with her plan but reluctantly. What sucks is that we are doing what I would like to be accomplishing in life in an education and time raising our children. But, I feel that if she could communicate better then we could place ourselves in a less stressful and secure position. If she could become open to doing fewer of the things that she thinks are important then she would not have an unmanageable life, and would be less angry at me. She would not need so much from me and would not have so many unmet expectations.

I know this can't be healthy for me to take her inventory, but I feel that I can't ignore it any longer.