Monday, January 17, 2011

Today I woke up on time and with a great deal of optimism to be productive. My biggest task for the day was to get some math work done.
After getting the kids fed, I set about doing some cleaning.  In time I got resentful that my wife was still sleeping and I wanted to get things done.  When she finally did get up and about I took my oldest son outside for some baseball practice.  I was a little disappointed that we didn't get more work in.  I just didn't have the initiative to think of good practice tasks.  I got to take the dog for a walk with my 2 girls to the park.  During lunch we watched a show about Martin Luther King Jr. and had some good conversation with the kids about the civil rights movement.  Later my wife was agreeable about getting rid of some clutter and I straightened up my garage. She went on some errands and I watched the kids.  I tried to get the math work done but I got continually interrupted.  I got resentful at my wife because she called me about 4 times to ask questions about groceries that she should have known. During the time after dinner while I was cleaning up and getting the kids bathed I got to watch Intervention.  I got to talk to a friend in recovery on the phone.  At the end of the day I got back to the math and got very despondent when I realized how much I have forgotten.

Looking back, their are a lot of things that my wife did for me, our family, and our home that I just can't do alone like grocery shopping, laundry, resale, etc. despite what time she woke up.
Perhaps I am worrying too much about falling behind in my math class when I am not behind yet and thus I am feeling resentful.
I need to try and be more patient and considerate with everyone and pray for acceptance and just focus on the tasks at had today.

I am grateful for my wife for the work she puts in to keep us fed and our household going.
I am grateful for the opportunity to go back to school.
I am grateful for the time I get to spend guiding my kids.
I am grateful for the sober life that I get to have today.

Thanks be to God.

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