This Wednesday I got to go to a meeting.  It was the noon meeting at my college.  I got to bring the topic so I talked about how I related to the state of mind that Charlie Sheen is showing.  I remembered going through this period of defiant tirade.  My wife remembered it too.  She remembered dates and locations and everything.  I just remember my attitude of thinking I was done with substances by my decisiveness and blaming everyone else and then saying that I deserved that lifestyle and not committing to complete abstinence.  I was grateful that I didn't have "people" validating me and that I didn't have resources to bolster my ego and a huge microphone to record it all.   Thankfully I made it through that and discovered the truth about myself and some measure of humility.