I really had to call on God's presence in meditation this morning. My thoughts were immediately all over the place when I woke up. As I prayed I could not focus on the meaning of my prayers and on seeking God's will. I had to empty my self in meditation.

At the noon meeting we read the end of step twelve. My thoughts lead me to the shift from dependence upon the material world and my circumstances for contentment to dependence upon the spiritual life and God reliance for everything.

This evening my wife was very frazzled. I did ok at resisting anger but I reached a breaking point when she did something inexplicable with the baby. I had a short but extremme spike of anger. I immediately let it go and didn't hold it agqainst her. She is sick.

Tonight I watched a program about a guy in a come living in te past. Sometimes I feel like I am living on Mars.

Thanks be to God for my spiritual awakening.