Last night I woke up in a panic dream. Later I woke up and could not go back to sleep. I was worried about not being able to sleep all night but I think that I only lost an hour or so. This morning I was late getting out of bed and late getting the girls up. I felt sluggish and lacking initiative all day. At times I sensed myself trending towards low grade depression as I was remorseful for not having the drive that I had yesterday. Add to that that my wife worked all day and again in the evening and I had to take care of the kids all day. I felt like I never got a chance to get going.

Tonight after they all went to sleep I was so tired that I almost went to bed with out this review. Thankfully I prayed and felt re-connected. I also tidied up the house to get a good start tomorrow.

I am grateful that my wife has some good work.
I am grateful that I get to spend time with my children and they tell me they love me.
I am grateful that I did connect with the people that I needed to today even if it was just to tell them I wouldn't make it today.
I am grateful that my son and i threw some baseballs.
I am grateful that I feel like I can be honest about who I am today.

Thanks be to God.