This morning I got off to a slow start, I felt almost like I had a hangover. At times I felt as though I had been spiritually drained by the lengthy 5th step I did yesterday. I found myself still being resentful about it. I realized that I was not making a thorough enough effort to forgive the guy, give it to God, and leave it in yesterday. I prayed and decided that I was done fighting.

I remembered that I had a long drinking dream last night. I don't remember the details, just that it was long and realistic and hopeless. Thanks be to God that I was protected from the real obsession.

In the first half of this day I felt distracted, worried, and without direction. I made an effort to seek renewal from God and trust that he would solve all my problems and that my worries would pass. By the second half of the day my outlook had shifted considerably. Some things then changed also and I felt like I could enjoy this time of my life.

This evening I took the boys to the meeting clubhouse and we just hung out there while the guys had their meeting. They had a great time running around in a place different than their yard. I was grateful to get out also and be around my friends.

Thanks be to God for this day.