This morning I had several moments of inspiration which formed my current outlook on life. In the morning mass the guest priest spoke for the second day of how Jesus initiated a change of emphasis from ritual sacrifice to sacrifice of self and relationship with God as the connection to his love and power. Then with the kids I watched the program "The Friar" which told the parable of the unforgiving servant.

It was a busy morning, I cooked the kids a great big pancake breakfast and had to attack the cleaning in prep for my mom's birthday lunch. I took a break to watch the animated stories of the new testament with the kids. My wife was getting ready for a play date and she got very angry with me because the kids kept stopping to watch the program. She also yelled at me for being an adult watching cartoons. I was resentful and disappointed that she just sees this as cartoons. But I was inspired by the lesson of forgiveness and I was able to turn away from my resentment and pray earnestly for God to remove it. I watched the parable of the Roman Centurion who had faith that Jesus would heal his servant. He had faith that Jesus was Lord and knew of his authority. I cried on seeing this. I made the commitment to go to confession today.

While everyone was gone I made an effective examination of conscience.

We had a great lunch. We had a discussion about the relationships between family members and the destructiveness of resentments.

I finally got my self to confession after 15 months. It went very well and I no longer feel worried about it as a difficult experience. I feel a load lifted off of my shoulders and I am ecstatic about being able to join with the LORD sacramentally again. I was inspired by a family I saw there to take all of my family.

I got to do some batting practice with my son. I got to go to a meeting.

Thanks be to God.