This morning I had to get myself moving several times to avoid the idleness that bothered me yesterday. At one point I found myself walking in and out and around the house just doing things I saw in front of me. It's not that I don't have anything to do it's just that with constant barrage of things to do to maintain the kids that I can't hold together a list of to dos in my head. With the unpredictable nature of my wife's work and the need to take and pick up the kids at camp I am never quite sure how much time I am going to have.

Nevertheless, I did feel a better sense of accomplishment today.

Today I realized that my discipline practices with the kids have degraded. I commit now to improve this starting tomorrow. I have got to quit nagging and yelling and instead must implement immediate consequences. I also must be willing to endure the meltdowns that will come at first.

I got to throw balls with my oldest and his friend today.

Thanks be to God.