This Sunday I was very pleased to make it to worship as we missed last Sunday due to all of us being sick.  Before mass I noticed that the motivation to skip it again came up once or twice.  As we arrived I also noticed a sense of spiritual deprivation that seemed to differ from the low energy and motivation that I have been experiencing lately.

Our readings were the call to resist the compulsion to revenge and violence.  The gospel was the "turn the other cheek" verse.  This made for a great teaching opportunity with my oldest son.  I was very grateful for his level of understanding and interest in this concept.  I was also grateful for the good behavior of the kids at mass.

This day I worried about my school work.  I never got any school work done this day as we had baseball practice in the afternoon.  I had to resist the impulse to remorse and seek to accept it and move on in trust that it will get done.  I also tried to commit to using my time more wisely.

I also worried about my recovery activities, about not making meetings, writing inventory, or working with others.  In looking at my week, I did go to a meeting on Wednesday, and every day I talk to a few fellow addicts in recovery at school.  Today I thought about the idea that the autonomy of the addict is an illusion.  I thought about an approach to the resistant that appeals to their desire for liberty by stressing that one must give it up in order to get it.

Thanks be to God for this day.