Today at work I felt like I was herding cats. I was buried by requests and tasks. I didn't get to make it to they noon meeting. I am grateful that I was so overridden because today felt like it would have been very long if I didn't have so much to do.

When I got home this evening I seemed to carry my burdens with me. I really missed my family. I cooked a big meal and ate by myself.

After dinner I thought about going to a meeting. I thought about how I have been to a meeting every night and I really don't need to go. I thought about all the home maintenance that I am neglecting. I thought about how I don't have any money and need to conserve my gas. I remembered that tonight is the night of the H&I meeting that I never get to go to anymore. I thought about how the meetings are not just for me.

On my way to the meeting I felt mentally drained and lacking inspiration. I tried to focus on a topic thread or to put together some thoughts, but I couldn't. I caught myself on a long stretch of road over some rolling hills and just asked for God's help with guidance and direction.

At the meeting I got to meet some guys over a game of table tennis. There were only two other guys there for the panel. The topic was God's will not mine. One guy shared from the heart, the other guy just had a few words. The thoughts and words came to me to share a great deal of experience.

A guy in the meeting spoke up during an extended silence. He said he never shares in meetings. He said "I just got it! It just clicked for me!". He went on to share a fundamental principle that finally made sense to him and he said he found a conception of God and his willingness at that moment.

One of the guys on our panel was coming back from relapse. He was my friend the atheist who I used to see at that meeting. He hadn't been there since the same time that I quit going. We just happened to go there on the same night tonight. He expressed his need to find a God concept and we talked a little about it. It was the greatest opportunity I have had in a long time to carry the message.

On the way home my wife called and said they are on their way home unexpectedly.

Thanks be to God for everything I need.