Today I was in the presence of my two bosses and the new guy. I sensed how they had a rappor with him that seems lost with me. I'm writing this down just to be sure and leave in today. I don't believe this is real or that it really matters. It is just my fear that is the problem.

On the way to the noon meeting I thought about a recent conversation where I almost had to let a normie friend know about my addiction. I thought about the conversation that would have ensued and how he might have thought that I must be struggling if I need to go to so many meetings still.

I thought about how I might have told him that a drink is so far from my mind that you couldn't make me take one. Then I realized that I often feel this way about it myself. I often feel like I am nowhere near a drink or drug. I remembered that I can't trust my feelings. I remembered that my obsession comes without warning or obsessing.

Thanks be to God for removing my obsession.