Today I had another setback at my job. I made a mistake that made it on my bosses radar. I am at a place now where I accept that it is inevitable that I am going to lose my job. I am not aftraid of being unemployed, or of the loss of prestige, or loss of a job I like too much. I am mostly afraid of having to go through the difficult process of termination. I don't like awkward confrontations with people and especially with people that I want to like.

My self esteem is threatened
My personal relations are threatened - Fear
My security, pocketbook, and ambitions are threatened - Fear
My sex relations are threatened - Fear
My pride is hurt - Fear

I should have valued attention to detail higher and communicated my workload better in my job to avoid making mistakes.
I should just take responsibility and own these mistakes and not be a victim.

Going forward I must strive to rely on God in my inermost self where my instincts generate my fears.

I must strive to remain amicable with my protagonists and rebuild bridges so that they might reconsider me later down the road if they ever feel this was a mistake.
I must continue to pray for acceptance of losing the job but also remember that it is not a certainty yet.
I must begin to prepare to be in the mindset of being on a job search.

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Today I thought some of a new perspective of what "selfishness and self-centeredness is the root of our troubles" means. I previously only thought of the overt or visible signs of selfishness/self-centeredness. But I didn't think of the more deeper ceded

I was able to get through the day in relatively good spirits and we had a nice little evening at home after work.

Thanks be to God for a design for living.

Corrective Measures:
After writing this review I read the daily scriptures. Today's Gospel reading was Mt 16:13-23 - “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?”.
In the last verse the Lord tells the disciples that he must endure the sacrifice. Reading this really helped me to accept the difficulty that I must go through whether I lose my job or not. I must embrace my suffering as an opportunity to demonstrate God's omnipotence.

Who do I say the Son of Man is?