This Friday was a very odd day.  I got off to a good start and took a long walk in the park, something I need to do more often.  I came home, cleaned the house and got settled in to catch up on my homework.   I was optimistic about being productive this day because my children and wife were still away on vacation and I was past the work and rest of the first day.  Then I got a call from a treatment center, it was a staff member friend asking me to go and speak for the family session. This was great news and I was pleased with the opportunity.  But then I became exceedingly distracted and paced the house back and forth for the next three hours going over and over my story.  At early evening I was stressed out anxious and powerless to stop my story from running in my head.

I talked to my wife and decided to go to a meeting to get out of myself.  It was speaker night and a good friend was telling his story.  It was a good talk but the guy was nervous and it made me more anxious.  I did my best to resist these feelings, went to the yogurt shop with some friends and came home to sleep.  I tossed and turned and relived my life all night.

May God's will be done, thanks be to God.