This morning I woke up feeling anxious and worried.  I still could not stop running my story through my head in preparation for my talk at the treatment center.  I tried my best to pray and pray and turn my thoughts away but still struggled.  I took comfort in the fact that I managed to get it together in my thoughts and get through it.  At this point my story began to coalesce on the all the times I had to get sober and how I always got distracted by my material needs and worldly affairs.

I felt really weird alone in the home, with sore legs and feeling unrested.  I felt as if I had been up all night on a binge.

At noon I went to the treatment center and the talk went very well.  Afterward, many people approached me and gave me their thanks.

I came home and was able to relax and get some math work done.

In the evening I got to go to a 12 step meeting.  We talked about the distraction of material needs and worldly affairs.

Thanks be to God.