This Tuesday during the day I took a walk to the neighborhood school to vote. It was bright and sunny and crisp and cool, turning warmer on the way home. I felt good for having done my civic duty and for being a good example for my kids. I felt bad for the choice that I had to make in the ballot box. In thinking back to this, my wife and I had a great discussion about it beforehand in which she helped me tremendously in thinking through the choice of whether or not to even participate in the process.

After being at home for a little while and doing some homework, I suddenly noticed it had grown very dark. We had the lights off and windows open in the nice sunny weather. As I walked outside I noticed the temperature had dropped with the cloud cover. I realized that I was having acute feelings of depression. Not serious emotional distress but just a reaction to the environment. I chose to change this, thanks be to God.

In the evening I got to go to a meeting for the first time in a long while. It was a really good meeting with just a few people at my home group. The topic was page 24-25 from the Big Book about the insanity of the alcoholic. I thought about how I had mixed feelings about my addiction back when. About how the understanding I found in AA helped me to resolve this.

Thanks be to God for this day.