This morning I found myself needing to apply extra effort to center my focus on God before entering into prayer. My mind really, really wanted to bounce from thought to thought, to start up and run on autopilot, to... I'm not sure what to call it, but it is for my mind to be unrestrained.

I got to take my son to a baseball camp today.  Before the camp he was beginning to settle into an isolated sedentary routine on a rainy day.  I remembered to remind him a few times and to get him motivated by turning on a baseball program at mid day.  He didn't give me much objection but I could tell that he really didn't wan't to go, he just wanted to stay home and play with his new toys.

I was very proud of my son at the camp.  He wasn't one of the "natural" athletes, but he showed great technique, focus, and discipline.  I was especially impressed with his running which was a major focus of this first day.  I realized that the training we have been doing is changing what I thought was his natural slowness.  After the camp he told me unprompted that it was a lot of fun even though he didn't think that it would be.

Today I thought some more about the simple strategy for sobriety.  I thought about the idea of "the solution" in the Big Book.  I need to compile this into an entry in my sobriety blog and work on it there.  Perhaps I would carry a better message if I try to be like the "Dog Whisperer" of dope fiends.

Tonight I briefly thought about a discussion recently in which I suggested that in order to make sound decisions about relationships, one must know what it means to be in a relationship first.  If one cannot answer the question, "what does it mean to be in a relationship?" then perhaps that is a sign that one does not know.  Then I thought "do i know?" well yes, I thought.  But could I answer the question concisely?  Perhaps the answer might be to have a connection of love with someone that has passion, intimacy, and commitment.  A relationship that is unselfish, trustworthy, and patient.  A bond that is a vital part my life's purpose, design, and being.

Thanks be to God for this day.