Today I remembered that my thoughts lately have been on the problem of the will.  That being willing to take directions is the way to recovery.  That when I went through the early intensive part of my recovery that I learned to carry God's will all the time and therefore take directions whether an actual physical person is giving them or not.

This morning I got up and got the kids up on time.  I had a hard time getting them to play outside.  They became eager to go out when I went out and got their new outside toys out.  At one point I became frustrated when they all kept needing help.  Later I also got irritable with my son's young cousin who came to play with him and was acting unruly.

In both of these cases I was blessed with the resilience to simply think about how lucky I am to get to have these children and get to spend time with them and I was able to get free from my discontent.  Looking back I see that this was a reaction to my need for order.  I needed motivational force to correct the children and help them behave but I did not need to become agitated.

In the afternoon I did some service work for our 12 step club by reorganizing the meeting format notebooks and repainting a sign.

My wife worked in the evening.

Thanks be to God for this day.