Today I thought about my fear of losing time. I thought about it when I was on my way to work and on my way home. About how I often engage in a competition with other drivers on the road. Sometimes it's when I overvalue the few moments I think I might gain by getting ahead of the slow people. Sometimes there's no reason at all other than I just want to beat others. I resolved to enjoy my drive instead and just turn off the radio and peacefully contemplate the things that are worth valuing.

I studied Nietchze, Jung and Joseph Campbell again today. I saw how their ideas were connected. I saw how Jung found meaning to life, Campbell fought with people and Nietzche died insane. They were all inspired by truth but they didn't all chose to see it.

I caught myself starting to react disrespectfully to Christie again today. But fortunately I remembered to set aside my judgement and to treat her with kindness. It was a good evening.

At work a couple of guys got into a conversation about reacting to customers and treating them disrespectfully because they don't do what they are supposed to. I wanted to interject and explain what I see them doing. Instead I waited until they brought me in, in an irreverant way. I had an inspiration to speak about how their conversation helped me in my marriage. About how resisting my judgements regardless of whether they are right are wrong was the way to get positive results. Not by changing her but by changing me.

Corrective Measures
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Tomorrow I should try to help Evan more at work
Tomorrow I should tell Christie I love her more
Tomorrow I should try to be a better example of living a moral life