Today was a good day. I am grateful for good health, good employment, good love and good thoughts.

At work I could have been more productive in my downtime. - dishonest

At times I was afraid of not being useful enough. I am just grateful that I am not run over like some of my other jobs.

Last night I didn't get to right a review. I was late getting back from my Bible study.

At the bible study something interesting happened. There was a question well into the meeting that asked the question: "when have you had to rely on a power greater than yourself?". I have been restraining myself from speaking about my addiction in the company of normal people. Something kept me from speaking about it ubtil the next question: "Do you share with others how God has helped you in your life?". I felt like that was my que from God to speak about it. I tried not to be too long winded but did talk a bit. Then the meeting leader talked about his drinking and God. Then another guy talked at length about his life of delinquency, crime and drugs.

At this point I felt like several of the others may have been alienated or confused. I realized just how much normal people are not like us. I think it was the right thing to do but I also feel like I learned how important it is to be prudent in normal circles. This also reaffirmed my recent endeavors to strive to be ble to communicate the miracle that God has performed in my life in terms of unmanaeability that any human being can relate too.

I thought today that maybe my 12 step fellowship is too close to the church where the meetings are held. I had to rethink my idea about having a meeting every night. Maybe that type of use would be better suited to a club.

Kevin called me and I called him back and had a good conversation at lunch. He was checking up on me because he heard I was going through a lot and he hadn't seen me at meetings. - grateful

Corrective Measures
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• I should jot down my thoughts during the day.
• I should also continue to try and think of ways to speak about the benefits of a spiritual life in terms that secular people would be receptive to.
• I should continue to strive to be a demonstration of good character and not a hypocrite.
• I should try to think more of others and call them

Grateful to be loved.