Tonight in our meeting my blind friend brought the following topic:

My friend promised when these things were done I would enter upon a new relationship with my Creator; that I would have the elements of a way of living which answered all my problems.

I remembered a moment this weekend when I was discontent because I had too much to do and not enough time to do it. My wife had errands, my son needed to practice, I needed to do yardwork, my parents were coming to visit, I had service work to do, We had church, I needed to check on work, etc., etc.

I had to stop and have a moment of inventory and a turn over my feelings to God. A few minutes later I found acceptance and was able to be content in the moment. Then I realized that we had a holiday on Monday and I had more time. It was like a miracle. God gave me an extra day and he made everybody else believe it was already on the calendar.

I remember that I didn't do the inventory for a purpose. I simply did it automatically out of the habit of my commitment to work the program. I didn't do it because I thought I was an addict. I didn't do it because I thought I wanted a better life. I just did it. Afterward I was grateful that I no longer was discontent, but I didn't feel a strong association of this action with my disease.

I remembered that lately my mind has been very focused on my life responsibilities and I seem to forget my addiction as something in the distant past. I remembered that I have lots of thoughts of spiritual relationship and growth but not so much about my redemption. I remembered that I had using dreams the past couple of nights.

I am grateful for the good things in my life but I have to remember that these are also the current distractions to my continued recovery. I have to remember that I still suffer from a mental blank spot, just on a different plane. The topic tonight help to vivify why I work the program and live the spiritual life.

Thanks be to God for the elements of a way of living which answers all my problems.