This morning we got off to a great start with cornmeal pancakes. I think the gluten free meal really helps me to have a clear mind and to dispell the sense of aimlessness that I sometimes get.

We all got to mass on time and in good spirits. As the time came to go and we were close to being late and my anxiety began to rise I remembered to practice acceptance again and it worked. As the mass began they announced the liturgy of the word for children and the two boys elected to go. Then my wife made a rash decision to take my oldest daughter. From the moment they left through the second reading my youngest daughter cried at the top of her lungs. I quickly descended into a brainstorm of anger at my wife even though I was conscious of it and attempting to resist. The daughter never stopped and I had to get up and walk out with her. But, we encountered my wife and I had to turn around and take a humiliating walk back to my seat. I had to use all the willpower I could muster up for the next 10 minutes to turn it over to God and to make peace with my wife. I actually took a 4th step look at this during this time. It passed fully by the time we came to the sign of peace in the mass.

Who - Christie
Why was I mad - She left with the kids and the baby cried at the top of her lungs for 10 minutes.
What part of self was affected - pride, personal relations
My Part - I could have gotten up sooner, I could have not worried about what people think so much.
Fear - I was afraid of what people thought of me.

The rest of the day was a great little relaxing day at home. I was busy tending to the kid's and our home needs all day while my wife ran errands but I felt constructive and content.

In the evening I got to go to a meeting. I never got to share on the topic which is just as well because I would have sounded like a broken record. It was an interesting topic and several people were cross talking.

I got to do step work with guys before and after the meeting.

Thanks be to God.