This morning I woke up early and got off to a great start.  after taking the kids to school I got focused on my research paper and by noon had a rough draft that meets the word count.  I am in better shape but was still afraid because I haven't done any work for the rest of my class assignments for the week.

I had a thought today that the first step might be about truth rather than honesty.  People used to tell me that I needed to get honest and I thought that I was.  But honesty is subjective.  Truth is concrete.  Honesty is an act, truth is a gift.  

The rest of the afternoon I did my child care tasks and practiced baseball with my son.  I kept putting off any further work to do other things.

I got to go to a meeting tonight.  On the way there I got stuck in a dilemma over which meeting to go to, the one with little support, or the big one where I only see those people once a week.  It was hard to make the decision and I physically changed direction several times but I eventually decided to go to the big one because of my limited availability to go make meetings.

The topic was finding balance between the program and other life tasks.  I found out that this meeting has set a 3 minute limit and I never was able to narrow down what I had to say concisely enough for the limit.  Plus a lot of other people had good things to say.  I would say that I got to try and carry the message in conversation and presence at the meeting.

In the evening I got to have a good talk with my son about managing his feelings by reviewing them and being mindful of this in prayer.

I heard of the death of one of my mentors Mark Houston tonight.  I regret that I never got to know him personally.  I feel like I know only few people who embrace the twelve step discipline and it helps me when I meet another.  I should keep this in mind about those who have not passed.

Thanks be to God.