Today I am grateful that I got some reading done for school.  This morning I woke up very early and got off to a good start.

At midday I had a sudden episode of inappropriate sexual thinking.  I pushed it aside and it returned.  I resisted again.  I resisted a third time and realized that I was minimizing it and that It had infiltrated and grown under my radar.  I was descending into an elaborate scenario without realizing it.

I tried to pray a few times and realized that this required more action.  I called a friend and talked to him and he gave me additional insight. I called another and the same thing happened.  I looked up the sex inventory in the Big Book and discovered that I didn't need to do a piece of inventory.  I read a little more and found what appears to be a spot-check inventory and actions for these types of urges.

We earnestly pray for the right ideal, for guidance in each questionable situation, for sanity, and for the strength to do the right thing. If sex is very troublesome, we throw ourselves the harder into helping others. We think of their needs and work for them. This takes us out of ourselves. It quiets the imperious urge, when to yield would mean heartache. 

 I prayed for the right ideal, for sanity, and strength to do the right thing.

Thanks be to God.