This  morning I started the day worried about a math assessment that I failed to adequately prepare for.  My wife was helpful in making allowances for me to get their in the best frame of mind possible and in trying to visualize a positive outcome.  I didn't believe that just wishing it would make it so but her words did help me to have a positive attitude.  In the end, I did not pass the test.  I did however, feel that I can pass the test if I were better prepared and I know what areas to target.   I don't see how I will find the time, but I will need to try.  I had to rely on God to overcome my feelings of disappointment and doubt.

I got spend some time attending to the problems with my truck.   It was kinda cool to get under the hood and troubleshoot it and work through the problems with a more functional mind than I recall from ever before.  I felt a great sense of confidence from this even though I sensed that the problems might not be permanently fixed.

Tonight I got to tell my addiction recovery story at the CA group that was my first home group.  I did good at turning away from anxiety during the day and then again on the way there and outside the meeting hall.  I thought a lot about humility this week and caught myself needing it.  Strangely it was this thought that relieved my anxieties a few times.  I had to pray that God remove my fears and I had to quit running through it in my mind and just relax and be in the moment.  As the time approached my heart raced and I forgot how to transition through the first segment but it came to me during the 2 minute meditation.

I was a little disappointed that I forgot a couple of things and I seemed to go a little long but all in all I stayed on track and covered the three main bases, what it was like, what happened, and what it's like now.  I got chills at one point talking about crossing onto "Brazos", the loving arms of God.

I love the feeling afterward when you get away from the crowd and you drive home and your imagination is fired and you think of things to say that will make it better next time.  Several people gave thanks and so do I.

Thanks be to God.