This morning during meditation I had an experience with spiritual focus. I was moved to meditate before my prayers which is the opposite way that I usually do it. I realized just how bad the clamor in my head has gotten. I started and had to restart 3 times as I kept having 2-3 trains of thought start running through my mind while I was trying to empty my self and focus on God. When I finally did clear my mind and let God in I had a tangible vision of light. It was like water-light, like ripples of water-light coming from a center.

I had a good day of learning and working through difficult problems and connecting with customers at work today. I felt productive and valuable again. I got good feedback twice on creative projects that I worked on.

I was able to persevere, be dilligent and stay focused through and overwhelming amount of work and with two meetings that ate up time. I feel inspired at my job and optimistic about the future.

I got to go to the Big Book Study meeting tonight. We read the chapter "A Vision for You".

I got to talk to several friends in the program today and I had a friend come visit after work.

Tonight my wife has made a decision that means I will have the kids by myself all day tomorrow. I had to be assertive and try to get her to reconsider her project. I could not. I got resentful. I need to let it go and persevere to find power to stay calm and forgive her.