This morning I decided to give up flavored drinkd for Lent except for OJ for the vitamin C. The idea is to give up indulgent dependencies. I don't think I should give up anything needed for nutritional purposes but rather the things that I don't need but just indulge in to feel better. I accidentally drank a coke at noon but I did observe the Ash Wednesday fast

In the morning my readings were synchronous with the events in my life and thought life. I even read the wrong day and that applied.

It has been a long and difficult day. I had my review at work and it went ok except that I got some feedback that is less than perfect. I also didn't feel comfortable talking about some things I have wanted to talk about to my boss. I got fearful to make any waves. I feel lucky to have any job right now.

My sponsor informed me that a good friend of ours is relapsing. I was disappointed and talked to him about where my friend is not surrendered. My sponsor said it was in the area of honesty but I don't see this like he does. I think it is more about willingness. I think that some of us are so incapable of being completely honest that it has to come to us through the process. I think that if we humble ourselves to the work and completely give ourselves to the process, the needed hnesty will come. Actually probably both things are true.

Tonight I got irritable at times with the kids as my wife is still bed ridden. But I did my best and things weren't too bad. She started feeling better at the end of teh evening and she saw the program "wifeswap" and she said there was an a-hole husband on there that made her grateful to have me.

Thanks be to God.