At mid morning I didn't feel right. I couldn't place my finger on it but I just didn't have the usual inspiration that is a daily part of my life. It didn't seem to be an emotional thing, I didn't feel intellectually slow, I didn't have any instinctual disturbance, I just felt a little empty. I thought about divine guidance but this seemed unimportant. At this point I took a spot check inventory of my program. What have I missed? I did 12th step work yesterday. I caught up on my reviews yesterday. That's when I knew what it was. I was feeling the delayed effects of missing my evening review 3 nights in a row. This is one of the cunning aspects of the spiritual malady.

Today I went to the noon meeting and we read the beginning of Gutter Bravado.

This afternoon I spent some time outside with the kids.

Tonight I read about step 11 in the grapevine.

Tonight I was resentful at my wife for reacting angrily with my son. I should have been helping her more.

God save me from being angry, thy will not mine be done.