This morning I vaguely remember that last night I had a major using dream.

I took time to meditate this morning and thought of spiritual reparation. I considered that the using dream was further evidence that I was experiencing spiritual deprivation due to not having a review of conscience 3 consecutive nights last week.

I thought of how this may seem overly dependent on the process or unrealistic but I have to remember that I am a person who has been gravely affected by a disease of the mind/spirit that requires dilligent maintenance.

I recieved some inspired conceptions today which I posted to my spiritual blog.

At mid-morning today I receieved notice that I had been fired from my area service position. I reacted angrily and had to do a spot inventory. I was able to reply with civility but lacking gratitude.

I had to resist thoughts of getting even by night being helpful. Later I began to discern that it would be better to be helpful. I got some hints from God when I picked up my son from religious education and read his classwork. Then we played his sticky situations game and the answer was Luke 6:24-37, Love Your Enemies.

I did a 4th step on it tonight.

At noon today I got to go to my meeting, the chapter was the end of step 4 again in the twelve and twelve. How's that for synchronicity. I thought of how I never have like hearing so much about how we're selfish and self-centered then I recalled that my conception of what this meant changed.

After the meeting a guy asked if the information in the Twelve and Twelve was the same as the Big Book. The guy that answered the question was the guy that chaired the meeting. He answered no. I helped by answering yes and no and providing a little more explanation. Once again I was just a support person in service work. I was an anonymous helper, but I got to do what really counts and I got to do it well.

Thanks be to God.