Last night I couldn't sleep and had many conceptions about step one sorting out repetitively in my head until I had to get up and write them down. This continued today. Another part of my spiritual experience is beginning to unfold.

Today was my first son's birthday. The magnitude of this day almost eluded me until just a little while ago. As I sent him off to bed I picked him up and pretended it was the day that we brought him home and I was showing him around his new home. Throughout the day today he and I had moments when we made eye contact or gestures and felt that psychic connection with each other.

This morning I had low expectations from the religious programs that were on and the children's attention spans as they were preoccupied playing and I began to change the channel just as the sign of the cross was being said in a cartoon. But then my daughter completed the words and I realized just how much they enjoy it and do pay attention. I stuck with it and got to see a great cartoon about Fr. Maximillian Colby and another one about how Jesus' forgives sins. It was amazing to watch and talk to them about it and how attentive they were. And I had a personal experience with Jesus' coming to forgive sins. It was just what I needed.

I was worried about my son's party because the invitations were just sent out thursday and I didn't think anyone would show up and my son was very excited about it. I was also worried because of the weather. It worked out fantastic. Several of Bobby's friends came and even though it was windy and cool it was very nice. My father made me feel better when he talked about how much he liked being outside in the weather. My son had a great time and I got to meet and talk to three fathers of his friends. Two of the guys are from our block but I didn't know them and one guy needed information about baseball. I was very grateful that God brought together the party.

Tonight I prayed with the boys and girls and thanked God for all his blessings and for making my son's special day grand.

I am especially thankful to the LORD for my spiritual awakening which continues to unfold.