Last night my wife asked me to help her study at the time I was trying to do my evening review so I am reviewing yesterday the 12th on today the morning of the 13th.

Yesterday morning I went to the big AA club in my area for a meeting at 10:30. When I was there waiting for the meeting to start a lady asked me to step up and chair. I was grateful for the confidence to do it. As the meeting got underway I felt a little nervous so I asked God for help.

As the meeting transpired I felt something that I have felt there recently as I have been attending meetings there alot lately. That is that the people there are crazy. There are some regulars and spot attendees who like to talk in an antagonistic tone about there pet peeves in AA. They typically don't stick to the topic. They address things that other people mentioned in their share and then exaggerate it and give a rebuttal. They go on these boisterous rants that are hard to follow and leave you wondering what the heck they were talking about. They all seem to think that they have AA right and others have it wrong.

I can see why so many people don't want to go to those meetings. The weirdest thing though is that it feels like a spiritual assault. I feel as though they are all trying to get others including myself shook up. One morning I started talking to a guy about some spiritual stuff, then another chimed in, then another. They all seemed like they were trying to convince me about something, they all ranted they all seemed at various times to be fighting each other.

The really weird thing is that they all share some spiritual truths then just when you start to feel comfortable they drop a foul bomb of self centered discord. I get the creepy feeling that there are demonic entities working to wreak havoc through these individuals.

A guy asked me to sponsor him after the meeting.

It was a busy afternoon doing all the kid pickups and then I had to take my son to his speech therapy with brothers and sisters in tow. I got irritated at my wife because she chose to go take a test and study rather than watch the brothers and sister. The waiting room with the three kids was stressful but I thought of all the people that I know that don't have the opportunities to be with their children like I do and I became grateful and got over my self-centeredness.

We had a nice albeit late dinner and the evening went by quickly.

Thanks be to God.