This morning I as I woke up I had a profound thought that I wish I could remember. I wanted to get up and write it down but I realized that if I did this then I would be placing it ahead of prayer and meditation and I would be risking that I would not ever get back to it as the kids were awake and we would need to start getting ready for church.

Whatever it was it was so edifying that I felt inspired all morning. We were all able to get to church on time despite the fact that my wife couldn't wake up until the last hour before church.

At mass my wife and the kids were not being quiet and I started to get resentful. I had to resist and ask for God's help. During the liturgy my wife was distracted with the kids several times and tried to get me to attend to them as well. I stayed focused to the mass but again felt anger rising several times.

After mass I went to the treatment center meeting. It was a great meeting, we talked about surrender. Afterward I talked to a sponsee on the phone for a while.

This afternoon I was alone with the kids again and had moments where I was overwhelmed. But we made it through the evening and all was ok. I think that I must let go of all attempts at rest and all media as I am not keeping up meals and cleaning properly.

Tonight my son was afraid because my wife had told him about a lucid man outside the place where she was sitting last night. I terribly want him to sleep with me because I remember the night terrors that I went through when I was a child but I know he will have to face this fear and sleep in his own bed again sooner or later so I told him to sleep there until I finish this review.

Thanks be to God.