As I write this this evening I have a profound feeling that I have regained clarity and willingness about my addict nature that had been elusive lately.

Today I was home with the kids all day because they were out of school. I had to stop myself from griping too much this morning. Then my son had a fit of defiance at mid day and I had to catch myself from using anger again. I was able to recognize excessive obstinacy early on and avoid too severe of consequences and correct it without a major break down for either one of us.

I got to have lots of good times with the kids today even though I was very preoccupied.


In the evening I took them across town to pick up a swing set for the club. On the way home my truck broke down.

I am grateful that I didn't break down in the middle lane of the highway that I was able to get to the shoulder.
I am grateful that I had water and was able to get the kids some food.
I am grateful that none of them were too afraid.
I am grateful for free towing from our insurance.
I am grateful for our frined who owns the car repair shop.
I am grateful that it looks like I have a blown head gasket and not a blown engine.

Today I had a dream about my wife. We had been separated for a long time and I was telling her that I had realized that she had become a part of me.

Thanks be to God.