This morning I got to do 12 step work with a friend in recovery. Afterward I realized that in our zeal for the work we never stopped to pray. So afterward I stopped and prayed for us both. During this worked I received a gift of definition in looking up asceticism. I realized that rigorous self-denial is at the core of my spiritual formation.

My wife just came in and interrupted me. I was trying to review the day and was struggling to remember but i couldn't. I didn't get mad at her or blame her. Instead, I realized that I had not prayed and needed to do so.

I wasn't afraid today, I was just able to have peace and enjoy the moments. For this I am grateful.

In the evening I watched the news about the shooting rampage at Fort Hood. As my mind went through the typical progression of thoughts into the "whys?" I turned away from blaming the man's religion and I immediately felt comprehension of how and why this can happen. Every instance of this sort of insanity is rooted in selfishness and self-centeredness. It is due to poorly formed self will and conscience, because of the spiritual malady. I didn't need to feel anxiety over this one bit because I received the confidence of a sense of understanding and the hope of a solution one man at a time someday.

I got to go to a meeting tonight and talk about the insanity of addiction. Afterward I got to play bean bag toss with some friends and have laughs and companionship.

Thanks be to God.