Saturday, November 28, 2009

Yesterday was both a day of recovery from the busy Thanksgiving day before and a busy day of preparation for our 2nd Thanksgiving event today.

I spent the day helping my wife clean inside, doing yard work, watching the kids, and putting up Christmas lights on our house. At times I was really worried about the cleanliness of the house. At the end of the day I felt like I should have spent more time cleaning than putting up Christmas lights and playing football with my son.

I was up very late and didn't get a chance to go to a meeting or talk to any of my friends in recovery. I think I was resentful that I have to pace out my meeting attendance as a matter of duty to my family. I tend to fault my wife but I realize that this is my self-centeredness.

In the evening I looked at the Christmas lights and was pleased at how beautiful they are.

Today was a busy day from the very start. We had our Thanksgiving dinner at my house with my in-laws. I was worried how it would turn out but it was absolutely perfect. I was nervous about saying grace but was grateful for the opportunity to be the guy who is called upon for this and my son told me that I did good.

I took the time to take a phone call while I was at the grocery store and it was a friend in the program. We talked at length about our holiday experience and about God's power over temptation.

In the evening I got to go to a meeting and I got to share my experience with the solicitations to drink and use and how even though I had neglected to prepare specifically for those situations, I was ready with what was truly important which is spiritual preparedness. None of the solicitations had any power over me because of the spiritual activities that I make time to do even when I don't have time. The only thing that I regretted was that I didn't specify that it's God's power that takes away the power of temptation although that was what I meant.

Today I never worried about my vehicle that is broken down at the shop.

In the evening my son joined be in my bed and we talked about my evening review. He remembered all the questions from the big book and we reviewed my day. That review looked different than the way these turn out and I wondered if that is more constructive than this. In thinking about why that is may be because that review is meant for a specific purpose of reviewing my failing while this is more of a journal.

Thanks be to God for this day.

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