Today was a very busy day as it was my oldest son's 9th birthday. We went to early mass and then had a birthday party at the bowling alley in the afternoon. I enjoyed seeing my son having fun amd making memories with his friends. The best moment was when he bowled two strikes in one game.

Today at mass I was grateful for spiritual focus. I saw that my wife is very distracted with the kids and the people around us. I remember that at some point I just didn't get that it was possible and necessary to detach from the world and focus on God, That this was the essence of God centeredness. I Also thought about her general disposition and how she is becomeing more and more stressed out, full of anxiety, short tempered, and worldy and self centered. I realize that I need to resist focusing on her too much and that I need to watch myself that I don't try to do God's job.

This evening I got to go to go to a meeting. Our topic was prayer. I felt moved to just listen and see what others said about the subject and I found that between the many people that spoke, they said a lot of what was important that I would have said. I felt that what I would have said would have sounded repetative so I let others speak. I did have some experience that was not shared that I could have spoke about namely about how I originally didn't see practical use for prayer but then learned that there was this whole part of my thought life that had been neglected all my life and that I discovered a new conception of prayer as the means to achieve spiritual hygiene and fitness which was a new conception that was very practical.

When I came home my wife and I were discussing some car repairs and we started bickering. I had to exit the argument, let her get the last word, and let her process her feelings. I had to resist demanding resolution to the issue and let God be God, not me.

Thanks be to God.