Today I spent the morning reading my final chapter of basic computing on technology careers.  I took the quiz and am now ready to take the final exam.  In this chapter I read some information that caught me by surprise and changed my outlook about my career path and self esteem.  I read about the various types and what they entail and character traits that are conducive to them.  I discovered where I fit.  I also read the requirements, job market, salary expectations and other factors. There was also a description of how many people in my field were employed without education due to the demand.  This answered a lot of questions and filled a need for validation that I didn't know I had.

I also read a success story on the community college website.  I identified with the struggles of a mother and person with a job going back to school.  These things gave me a sense of direction and enthusiasm.  I felt a strong desire to make a greater commitment to my education and career.  I even thought about reducing my 12 step activities to devote more of my mental resources to this, at least temporarily.

This afternoon I played a game of tee ball with the 3 oldest kids in the back yard.

I thought today about how my disease has whispered to me lately, like a shadow outside of my window trying to get me to let it in.  I thought about how personifying the disease might be a good tool to reflect the actual spiritual battle for those who resist religion.

In the evening I got to go to a 12 step meeting. I thought very seriously about not going.  The topic was on step 12 and the absolute need to work with other addicts.

Thanks be to God.