Late Monday night (Tue morn. actually) I could not sleep and my cycle got thrown off.  Tuesday morning after feeding and dropping off the kids I fell asleep studying and didn't wake up until noon.  I was anxious over a test due this week and really needed to prep.  As I did so I got really stressed out when I made a lot of mistakes and made very slow progress.  The prep test was 60+ problems and I felt overwhelmed.  Nevertheless in the afternoon I went in to take it with trepidation and low expectations.

As I sat down with the test and tried to resist my anxiety it occurred to me to say a prayer.  I had a eureka moment and felt an immediate change of attitude.  I got through the test fairly quickly, it was a lot easier and shorter than I expected.  I am not sure that I passed as I might have done some problems the wrong way but I was grateful to get through it.

I had a nagging feeling to call a sponsee who has not called me but I never found time.
I felt like I should have done more school work besides the test but looking back it was all I could do that day.

In the evening I got to go to a meeting.  We talked about step one from the first page of the twelve and twelve.  I talked about my inability to truly admit that I was an addict until I took the steps.  The metaphor of the rapacious creditor stood out to me and someone else in the meeting shared about this concept.  I had a thought but wasn't sure where I was going with it.

Thanks be to God.