For 3/15/08

Today I was alone with the kids for the early part of the morning while my wife did a garage sale with a friend at the friend's house. I had to set aside my plans anytime I saw myself forming ideas that I wanted to do something that wasn't direct maintenance of the kids.

The morning went well until the 3 year old had a pee accident in the kitchen. I had just had him sit on his potty so I was angry at him. I went around for a while repeatedly scolding him. I had an ongoing thought of myself as a looming oppressive figure over him. I had to catch myself and stop it from going on too long. I had to discipline him without anger. I had to make amends by showing him love.

The rest of the day went well, I had some minor resentment to my wife's involvement in the garage sale but I tried not to be.

I took my son to his scrimmage in the afternoon. He did fairly well, hitting the ball a few times, running the bases, then making some stops in the field. I made a mistake as first base coach and had to shrug off too much regret inside. - fear

I need to watch my anger when my son and I are getting ready for practices and games.

I got a call from a guy who moved away to another state. He said he had been sober for just over a year and he was doing ok still. He thanked me for the help I gave him in getting sober.

In the evening the baby fell off the bed and I got very worried about her. She appeared ok but she cried for 3 hours. I was irritable and fell asleep.